sparse/spärs/
1. Thinly dispersed or scattered.
2. Austere; meager.
"Scattered" doesn't really do it justice. "Thin", well, that is getting closer and "meager" that seems to almost describe it. There is this looming feeling that I have had for a few months now. I know that part of it is that I am genuinely heartbroken over a few areas of my life, things within me and around me. It's not dramatic, it's the truth. I know that even when I gear up and sing songs of joy and smile wide and meditate on God's word....I still feel a little crushed.
Looking over blog posts and journal entries I know that God is teaching me so many wonderful things and really moving me forward. But I also know that I may be trying to do so many things on my own. Self realization does not always equal spiritual revelation. I think I need to remember that even in all my "meager" yearnings to be better, stronger, brighter...it's vanity if it's not Christ driven and spirit filled.
a·bun·dant/əˈbəndənt/
1. Existing or available in large quantities; plentiful.
2. Having plenty of something
John 10:10 "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy, I came that you may have life, and have it
abundantly."
Something, or some things have been stealing life from me lately. I know what some of them are, some are still to be pointed out. But none of these things can match what Christ brings and gives. I know that life can be abundant. I know that I do not have to settle for "sparse".
